Metal Meredith

Sometimes my posts were less than interesting, but I managed to do it.

Now is the fun part of feeling guilty when I don’t update daily. 

I find that when we get busy around here, certain things just fall by the wayside. Like in every house, we have to pick our battles.

But then I started wondering, how many times do we just turn a blind eye and hope for the best? Here are a few things that we have done in the past to get around completing the whole task:

*I have been known to use clean glasses from out of the dishwasher instead of emptying and refilling. Sometimes, more often as of late, we have had almost as many dirty dishes to be loaded as are clean to be unloaded.

*The dryer becomes an extra dresser that is in a way more convenient in that they are right in the kitchen, no folding necessary and easy fluffing at a moment’s notice.

*Using folded clean clothes out of a laundry basket instead of a dresser makes it easier to tell when your clothes need to be washed; empty basket = time to do laundry!

*Grabbing an additional trash bag to put on top of an already full kitchen trash can makes the point that it needs to be emptied, without taking that chore on yourself.

*Walking away from a stopped up toilet, hoping that with time to sit and stew (ha!!), the clog will fix itself the next time someone flushes.

I know I am not alone. I know that this doesn’t make me a bad person. But I do know that when things get tight, time-wise, in the house, these tasks are the first to get pushed to the side. 

Not even close. Born a close friend to Ronald McDonald? Maybe.

Not sure when I will learn that I can pay someone to do this. I do save $150 when I do it at home, but at what cost?

My Grandfather died last Friday. It is hard to wrap my head around at times. It seems normal, expected and not at all sad. Then I really think and get that feeling when my throat seems to fill up with emotion and it causes all the tears in my eyes to spring forward. Grandparents are like the best chocolate around, given to you as a kid. Then, one day when you are used to it being readily available and you have forgot how special it is, it goes away.

I am sad for my own loss, but I am devastated for my children. I liked my grandpa a lot. I wanted him to teach my kids to fish like he taught me. I wanted him to fill a huge dish to the rim with coins and then allow them to dig in (with one hand only!) and let them keep their loot. I wanted them to be able to be called “Gypsy” and have those funny faces and ridiculous stories told to them over and over until they can repeat them all by themselves.

My Grandpop was goofy, sometimes large and intimidating but all the time lovable and caring. I think he loved his family more than anyone in the world was capable. In the last two years, I was able to see him more than I had my whole life. He moved closer, along with my Grandmother, and we were able to see him as much as we were wanted to. It was such a blessing to have him near, one that I am not sure I understood until now.

I have so many stories that I am unable to properly sort them in my head. My father wrote a wonderful post about him in his own blog. I loved it so much that I read (or should I say, choked and sobbed my way through) parts of it at his funeral. I swear I really did think I was fine, that I saw it coming and knew it would happen as soon as it did. But I wasn’t expecting all of the “But wait...” moments that followed where I wished I had, wanted to say, and forgot to tell. Suffice it to say that I have now learned this the hard way.